Silver and Gold

This is a time when some people play Christmas music, so it is without saying that I would hear one or two of them. Today I heard an old Christmas diddy by Dolly Parton called “silver and gold” . The song is about worth and such.

To me it reminds me of an old saying “make new friends, but keep the old. One is silver the other Gold. It makes me think of the little group I am a part of. The Fabulous HellKatz. You seeI met Echo and K shortly after starting my blog here. I couldn’t have imagined how important their friendship would become. You see they were silver. Silver is pretty and shiny, but it can be easy to fail to see it’s worth. Years have passed I was in jail, my life has changed. The Hellkatz have changed too, but stuck by my side. That’s the thing. Recently I went through a pretty terrible time in my life. Deep depression, and although I had made some new friends I couldn’t talk to them. There was no understanding of where I had been in life. What’s worse I let that overshadow what should have been an easy decision. I was scared to even talk to other people because I felt if I couldn’t trust these new friends how could I trust anyone..

I should have remembered I have friends that are Gold sooner than I did.. Once I opened up to the Hellkatz, and my oldest friend in life I started feeling better. Today I was reminded I have friends who are gold. Echo and K, the other Hellkatz. My Golden friends. I love you both. Thanks so much.

A new beginning.

A day or so ago I walked into a local convienance store to buy a drink. I saw a sign on the door that said “we’re hiring” half joking I said “I want the job!” I spoke to the store manager, then the store owner.

I was told this job was tips only. That I would be wiping down cars after they came out of the car wash.

I was unsure, they seemed unsure. The manager seemed unsure. I left unsure. Saturday (as it is technicly Monday here) I spoke with them again. I was told I may or may not get called Sunday. .. Again unsure. Sunday I walked in the Store to buy a drink and was waved over by the owner. He asked when I wanted to start. He actually asked if I could start that moment. I asked to go change clothes. He said ok, and I did.

I started my brand new job today. I get paid tips only, so I make or break myself. I always said if someone would just give me the chance I would work.

I want to better myself, I want to work. I pray this works out. I want to stop being in need.

I may have to start scheduling blogs. I will blog as much as possible.

Thank you for reading.

~Drk

A Thankyou.

As any of my usual readers will know, my family has had a tough few weeks. I blogged about it, I moaned about it (truthfully I even cried about it!)

I have some legal issues, and other things but what weighed most on me this month has been my struggle to feed my pack. My little boy wanted a peanut butter sandwich last night and I could not provide it. Many may never understand the pain and heartache that can cause. Oh sure I had anger, and annoyance, but I was truly depressed because I couldn’t give my child a sandwich.

I’ve went hungry before, and I know he isn’t starving, but he was in want. Again, I came to my blog, and wrote.

An amazing thing happened. I won’t name names but I was able to go to the store today and purchase food.

To those who helped. Thankyou! From the bottom of our hearts Thank you!

Sincerely,

~Drk